Artsy Fartsy! :D

This is probably one of my most awesome masterpieces ever... THE BLENDOKU SHAPES :)

I did that for 3 days during the Papal Visit to the Philippines, and I don't even know why. I guess I got quite bored then, and it was break time (we had a break from school for a few days), so I decided to use that time to create this. I honestly had limited coloring materials then (only a few colored pens and colored pencils). But now, I have a lot. I've saved up money (and sometimes asked Dad) so I can buy those coloring materials. I drew shapes first with a marker, then colored the edges of the shapes until I was able to fill them up.

So what now would be a befitting description/interpretation for this work of art? Well...

"The colors represent every person, their personalities and moods. They're all different. We are all different. But those differences illuminate us, make us shine, help us. And when we come in together, we're like a beautiful rainbow... An exciting mix of colors pleasing to the Eyes of the One True Maestro."

I'm planning to make another one, so... You'll just have to wait. I'll do it by the summer. Hahahaha! :)

- ArghkneeDarkberry :)

GIF Craze!

Some GIFs me and my friends made using an app called GIF Me! I know I made this post Tumblr-ish, but hey... I did say I'm a bit weird and stuff. Hahaha! :P Hope you enjoy them! ;)

Special thanks to Eunice, Harlace, Ate Vina, Aaron, and my super awesome bestfriend Ria <3 br="" nbsp="">

"But For Me, MAROON & WHITE..." (How PWU Saved My [College] Life)

"Konting push nalang, gagradweyt na ako!" 

One of the many common posts I see today in my Facebook News Feed is this line. Ahh yes... Who doesn't want to feel that graduating vibe? The grad pictorials, the toga rentals, the venue, the grad gifts the pester market demands from their parents... All of them lead to one unforgettable event in everyone's lives: GRADUATION. PAGTATAPOS. Shocking isn't it? Nostalgic, even. You remember the first time you ever experienced school? And now, all of a sudden, you're in your last level, the TERTIARY level, just before you enter the "real" world. I remember before this trimester started (which will be my last trimester), I was walking down the lobby and told myself "Ang bilis ng panahon. Kapapasok ko lang dito ah? Ngayon magtatapos na ako." I also remember how grateful I am PWU saved me from a rather uninteresting and dull college life. Here are some of those times when it really did save me from feeling bored and bemused:

1) PWU WAS THE PLACE WHERE I FOUND MY SWEET ESCAPE FROM THE SORT OF DULL LIFE I EXPERIENCED IN MY PREVIOUS SCHOOL.

* OK, lemme clear things out first: I KINDA DID ENJOY MY PREVIOUS SCHOOL SOMEHOW. But it was honestly dull and stuff. Or maybe I'm biased because I haven't experienced much there. But to be honest, I was able to visualize that early how my life would be in my previous school: it would be less exciting, and I wouldn't feel the warmth of the school. I'd be an outcast, and just go through it. Here in PWU, I've breathed the freshest of airs when it comes to college life. It was fun, exciting, and the energy of the students during activities never runs out. Truly a "sweet escape" for me.

2) PWU MADE ME REALIZE THE REAL IMPORTANCE OF MY DREAMS.

* Ever since 3rd year high school, I've dreamed of becoming a journalist, not because I wanted to be seen talking on TV or something, but the feeling of being in media gives me this euphoric, proud feeling that you would always be in the know and less ignorant of things. Upon entering the school, I was given the widest of views when it comes to the field I've chosen to enter in. It made me realize that my dreams would be much, much better if I focused on it and gave my best. I was given a lot of opportunities to show my potentials, and I must say, I am now prepared to make them all come true.

3) PWU IS THE MOST EXCITING PLACE TO MEET AND MAKE FRIENDS.

Yeahp. I'm going to be proud in saying this, but PWU is the best place to balance school and social life. In here, you feel like you belong. I made friends easily here, and the loyalty of each other does not crumble in any way. I always get giddy when going to school, because this is where my friends are. (In fact, this is where I found my two awesome besties!) Truly, if you feel down and have no friends, hop on here! We'll all be your friends!

Well there you have it. They might be few, but still, they're the reasons why I will always have PWU in my heart. This is the place where I found myself, where I was able to realize and learn a lot of things about life, and where I was opened up to limitless possibilities for my future. *sigh* Only a month to go and I'll be leaving my dear Alma Mater. But my promise would always, always be fulfilled: all colors will be brighter than any, BUT FOR ME, MAROON AND WHITE.

I'm Having A Hard Time Being Single

I guess I need not explain as to why my post is titled that way. Five months have passed and I am still single, and I am honestly having a hard time being one. I guess it is because I got used to being 'in a relationship' that is why I am like this. For other people, it is practically very easy to live life even if they are alone and not having a lover. Well for me, it is really hard. I badly want to be in a relationship again, with high hopes that my boyfriend would be my husband and partner for life when time comes. But right now, I am having a hard time looking for a guy to take up that role in my life.

I will not lie if I say that I am quite envious of the ones now currently involved in a romantic relationship. Even, I guess, the ones that became couples too quickly, even time did not notice it (though I know the consequence of losing the relationship early due to a weak foundation earlier in the relationship). I frequently question myself: "Why is it that no man would want to become mine?" Why? I am capable of loving! And yet fate, destiny, or a certain living Deity has deprived me of the one thing I ask for right now. Is it because I am not that beautiful? Not that thin? Is it because I do not fix myself much, or put make-up on my face? Is it because the only things I know how to do are reading, writing and make arts and crafts? Is it because I am weird and I do not go with the flow of what is 'in' right now? Is it because of the many questions I ask? Or... Is it because I will never really be in another relationship again?

I am quite pissed off and angry, but I do not know who I'd blame for these feelings. Even I, the one feeling all these negativity, do not know who these are for. It is very easy to point a finger, but it is hard to give reason as to why I would put the blame on whoever I would. Sadness, anger, hatred and fear are the feelings I carry in my heart right now.

Sometimes, I would just think of flirting with different boys, let my confidence reach its limit, be a bad person, or get myself drunk. All these I am willing to do just to forget thinking about the hardship of not having a boyfriend. Sometimes, the hardest decision is made: on whether or not I would still continue living. You know? So that I would need not to think about all the pain I am experiencing right now. I only wish for one thing: to be with a guy who would help me change these negative feelings or remove them, or if not, simply change my outlook in life and in love. My heart is not numb. At least not now. But I am feeling the end of the softness of my heart, as it is ready to be completely numb and hard as a rock. I fear the day that a man would come up to me to soften it, but he could not anymore.

Others say, 'Time is all you need,' 'Just wait. He's just around the corner, waiting for the right time to introduce himself to me.' But I guess when the day comes that I meet the one for me, I would not have to guts to play the game of love. My heart would be numb in totality, and would only hurt him if he offers his heart to me. We are both pitiful, but I would pity myself more. When I have no intention of gambling my heart again, there he would try to crush my unbreakable heart.

I am having a hard time being single, but I guess this sadness and smarting pain would all be temporary. I guess I would just have to wait for the day that my heart is numb and would not feel the pain and sadness of love. I would be free at last. Even if the guy was sent for by the president of the Philippines or the angels of the Almighty Father, I guess I would not love him, unlike the love, care and comfort I am willing to offer now. :(

(NOTE: I originally wrote this in Filipino, but since I'm more comfortable with English and my blogs are mostly in the aforementioned language, I just translated it.)

Keep Your Head Up!

Happy Birthday to me! :))

OK so... Out with being 18, in with being 19 ^_^ No difference though. I just aged a bit :P My family + boyfriend and I went out yesterday somewhere for a pre-celebratory lunch ;) Bad idea eating at the resto, though. Now my boyfriend (who seems to just love teasing me most of the time, but in a loving manner) has something new to tease me with :))

Well, since today is my birthday, what should I say? How should I act? I dunno, really. I actually don't feel the enthusiasm today. It's kind of like a normal it's-my-birthday-today feel. No giggly stuff and whatever. Yep. I'm kind of at loss for words as to how I'd react today :))

Anyways, I blogged this because I'm bored and I feel the need to update my blog ;) Hihihi :3

'Til the next blog! ^_^

My Philosophy in Life :)

"Appreciate and you will somehow be appreciated back." 

This is the philosophy I follow in life. In the midst of misfortunes, accidents, unessential things and series of unwanted events occurring in the present time, still, I find reasons to appreciate things that truly matter. The beauty of nature, the silence of the heart, and the fulfillment of contentment in life, and everything in between; they are all worthy of appreciation. 

People see things less now, especially when they think the value of that one particular thing is low. People appreciate the more extravagant things rather than the simple ones. They accede to the ones that gain more attention; ones that should not be given even a single ounce of it. How many times have we seen a pretty rose much more than a stunning tulip? When did we last appreciate the blue, untainted skies rather than the shapely clouds? To whom did we choose to feel indebted towards: the truthful enemy or the fake friend? See, we show appreciation to the things that are of lesser importance to us, or rather, those need not to be appreciated. It may get kind of boring to keep appreciating the old ones. Try seeing outside of the box and learn to be thankful for the other things outside of your "appreciation comfort zone". 

And what gift is reciprocated with my appreciation? Their appreciations. People who are thankful for things are also constant recipients of a million thanks back for whatever they have done to someone or for something. It's like that mantra for the Code of Hammurabi and the one Jesus taught us: "An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth. Whatever you do to others will be done to you." Maybe not all will appreciate you, but hey, some will still.

Continue realizing everyone and everything's worth in this world, and surely, they will also appreciate your worth here. 

'Til the next blog! :D

Hmmmm... I Just Wonder...

OK so... There are some questions my World Literature professor posted after our discussion on Egyptian literature:

1. Are all human achievements futile after death? 
2. Who discovers one's purpose to live?

Well, here's a short thing of what I have to say about such:

1. Humans achieved so much so well in their journeys through life. But then again, after death, it all does become futile. Why so? Simply because a new life means a new beginning. Some people, if not all, believe that there is eternal life after one's earthly death. And because of such it is the reason that all things must be back to Square 1 and begin everything from the start. Only difference is, this start has no end, and it will continuously go on. 

2. As for the discovery of one's purpose in life, it is simply self-discovery. We go through this journey called life to find our purpose of existence. "Who are we?" "Why do we live?" "Exist?" It is for us to find out. No one can find out all these but ourselves. As we continue to walk our own "yellow brick roads" to the fulfillment of these things,  we will be in a never-ending cycle on search for our purpose in living in this place we call Earth. 

'Til the next blog, peeps! :))